How Silly and Ridiculous does it Become when it get to the Word: SIN?
12/01/2006 12:53 I am wondering what the 53 is indicating as I am getting the combination a lot of times now – I know they add up to 8, but what the combination imply I do not know and if it even imply something I do not know either.
This is Lor75 and 7 + 5 = 12 and Lor76 (in one)
Dear Lore
I woke up this morning busy with a strange dream – or maybe not that strange. I was close to the sea, but in front of me a carnival was going on – the carnival of life it seems. And behind it the sea was making the most beautiful waves in the sunlight. And I was trying to take pictures of this – getting the carnival as well as the beautiful waves, in. And with carnival, they had built vehicles that carry themes. And at one stage I was watching one of these vehicles, which the theme was an elephant, but behind it the sea was doing something that scared me a bit – you know, the kind of scare I think one will have if that water were a tsunami type. But all the other waves I have witnessed and was beautiful was green and blue bright, with the sunlight on it, but they haven’t broken yet into the white like when waves brake, they look sort of whitish. But behind this carnival elephant built vehicle, there came a huge wave, that was already broken – but the white part that has formed was enormous and it scared me a bit. And I was thinking that we need to move to a higher place. But all the people were so busy with the carnival that the sea and the waves had no impact on them.
And I wonder if life is not really like a carnival – aren’t we making a carnival of it anyway
But the most important thing about the dream was that I was trying to capture the beauty of the waves and the carnival on my camera. But I do not think one can ever put the real beauty of the real thing onto a photograph. And although I was trying to take all these photos – of moments in time – I was not satisfied with them. But in the dream I never got to see the end result of these pictures that was taken. So I cannot really explain why I was not satisfied with the pictures I took. But I know the last scene I tried to capture was the vehicle with the elephant theme and behind it the tsunami type of wave behind it, on its way to it. And I do associate knowledge with elephants. So maybe in this carnival of a life we are living, something like a tsunami is going to hit our theme of knowledge?
I don’t know – I just know that the water was never brown or dirty. Even the one coming for the elephant theme vehicle was pure white.
Anyway, I just wanted to share this with you for now.
LOVE
Renee
12/01/2006 13:13 and when I see 13 I think of something Higher that is at work in this “carnival”.
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13/01/2006 20:12 turning 13
Dear Lore
There were something wrong with our Mnet now and my father called the company to fix it for us. He tried to explain it to them and said that a other way round 3 and a 0 is showing on the little screen. I looked at the screen and saw that it was actually an “E” and an “O” or 0. Now I am wondering if that is where the 5 and 3 combination is connected to. As “E” is the 5th letter of the English alphabet combined with what my father called another way round 3. But the guy on the other end could also have wondered – seeing my father called it an other way round 3 – if this is an “M” or if it could be a “W” as well. But “M” is the 13th letter of the English alphabet (coincidentally also today’s date and turning up in the time as well) and the “W” I view as a double “V” and “V” is the 22nd letter of the English alphabet.
So connected with this other way round 3, we get the following possibilities:
- “E” or 5
- “M” or 13 (4 and where 4 is linked to 2 + 2 or 22)
- “W” or double “V” or (22 x 2 = 44)
I do not know what this means and if it means anything at all.
LOVE
Renee
13/01/2006 20:25 and 2 + 2 or 22 and a 5 and it seems the above 3 connections are linked to 22 and a 5
15/01/2006 or 06/01/06 again and 08:14 and 2 + 6 = 8 but 15 – 1 = 14 and it seems my friend Karina thinks my sums on the (-) and the (-1) thing are important and I need to speak out – I don’t know…
Dear Lore
I had the strangest dream last night – it was actually a bit scary. There was this sheriff that the kids trusted to protect them. And then there were this guy who it seems a lot were looking for – including this sheriff, to protect the kids in some or other way. I do not know if this “guy” the people I was with were looking was some criminal, but it was sort of like it was some police people I was with. Then we were not at the scene where the sheriff was anymore and I looked through a window and through another window and I saw this “guy” everyone was looking for. But although I knew that I saw this “guy” through the two windows, it did not feel as if there were windows between us. And he looked at me and saw that I saw him. And he looked like a type of Native American but what was strange about him was that he had this magician type hat (black) on his head – well, you do not really get them in white. But this made some impression on me. And then the other people and myself were hiding – in order to find this “guy” and I knew he was coming in our direction and as he got to us, the others were hiding their faces and then this “guy” shot me with a gun in my neck/throat. And as I woke up, I still had this strange feeling in my neck/throat where I was shot. It was on my right side of my neck/throat where I got shot. And he said to me as he came to us before he shot me, that he is going to shoot me first. But in the end he did not shoot the others.
Then, just before I woke up, I was at a very high position and could see mountains and mountains on the earth. And I thought this strange thought that next time I would want to be able to fly across those mountains as those mountains are huge obstacles for humans to get over as humans are so small in relation to those mountains. But the mountains were beautiful.
Well, just wanted to share this strange dream with you – it seemed for a while the dreams were quiet, but the previous night I had also strange dreams and in that one eventually the kids had to stop playing and go to their homes because I found a leopard (panther) who was camouflaging itself – and the kids were not impressed that they had to stop playing. But a lot of them were so dirty – especially the one who I passed to move them in the direction of their homes.
Anyway…
LOVE
Renee
15/01/2006 08:29 and the time added gives a 19 which is linked to beginnings and ends.
15/01/2006 09:40
Dear Lore
I was just thinking of how the world either agree with some things or disagree about some things – and seeing the dual world, that is probably how it is suppose to be. And I thought to myself, but anything is possible – but then I started to wonder about that statement that anything is possible? Because the opposite of possibility is impossibility, and if anything is possible, then there would be no space for something to be impossible as everything (enclosed in anything) is already linked with being possible. If anything is possible, can impossibility have any existence at all? People believe that with God, everything is possible. But wouldn’t the inverse of this statement would then be, but nothing is impossible – which is saying that the only thing that is impossible is nothing. Nothing is the only impossibility – that is if everything is possible.
I don’t know, this is confusing…
LOVE
Renee
15/01/2006 09:46 or 09:10 or 91 now, the inverse of the end of the previous letter – as that letter ended on 19 and this one on 91.
16/01/2006 09:53 and I have wondered about this 53 since the beginning of Lor75 and even thought there was some sort of answer in one of the other letters in Lor75. But yesterday I heard on the TV accidentally that someone was multiplying 3 and 5 or 5 and 3 which gives 15. And what was the dream I had on the 15th?
Dear Lore
Yes, and yesterday was the 15th and it was Sunday and on the front page of the Sunday Times they had a small article about the Vatican that want to change the perspective the church had about Judas Iskariot all these years. Apparently they do not want to deal with him as a person of treason, but as one who only played out his role in God’s Plan.
As I read this I send my friend Len an sms and said to him I know what they are going to put up with should they take on this interpretation. In short it will come down to that Judas was only a puppet in the God’s Plan. If you widen this perception and all are merely “puppets” in God’s Plan, where do sins come in – how can we be sinning if we are “puppets” in God’s Plan? I am wondering what will happen to the church if this happen – if their interpretation leave them to one conclusion, and that is that what they are based on, namely sins, does not exist – this sounds if it could get into a catch 22 situation should the church decide to see Judas in a different light. And I wonder if they do not want to see him in a different light because they feel they are judging him and they do not want to do the judging thing anymore.
And all this also happened on the 15th. I think it is just, according to the Bible Jesus knew that Judas was going to do what he did. That shows that Jesus knew something in the future and then the question for me is, if it was something already in the future and Jesus knew upfront, how could Judas have been responsible for his actions if it was his fate?
And my friend Karina says that one is actually sinning if you make a choice what is against what your destiny is. This will put so much strain on people – I know as I have been there, it gets to a point where you do not know what you are suppose to do even every nano second. How can we know? I got to such point in beginning 2004 that I was lying in anguish on the bed not even knowing when to blink my eyes to just do what my destiny is to do! But that is the extreme it can reach if you think that it is up to yourself to comply to your destiny. And if I look at the Judas story, Jesus knew for sure that Judas was going to do what his fate was – how could Jesus have been so sure of that if it still was up to Judas to still decide if he was going to do it or not? If the possibility was still out there that Judas could have made a choice still – how could Jesus have made the claim he made that someone was going to give him away. How could Jesus have made the claim that his most truest follower was going to deny that he knows Jesus 3 times and that the chicken was going to make a noise about that. So how did the chicken know what he was suppose to be doing in God’s Plan? What if he did not make the noise like Jesus predicted, would he then have sinned? This sound a bit ridiculous to me.
Anyway, everybody are allowed probably to believe what they want – it is just, the things does not make sense to me. But at least it seems the Catholic Church is moving in a very new direction. If I take what the Afrikaans churches are up to – they are still way behind as they are all still deciding how to interpret certain events in life to know what is sins according to what God is all about in the Bible and what not. Or maybe there is not that much difference? As it seems they are all busy with interpreting what God want us to do? I guess the only thing different from the Vatican and the Afrikaans churches, is that I want to see who of them is first going to come to realize but they have a problem – the Word that is suppose to tell them all about God is only confusing them?
LOVE
Renee
16/01/2006 10:26 and today is the 16, the combination that is linked to you and Linda and then we are left with a 01 (in the date) and a 10 (in the time) and a 2 and a 6 in both the date and the time.
16/01/2006 10:54 or 19 the result of time
Dear Lore
I was just thinking now and wondering. My friend Karina also said that it is for humanity to evolve. But so much of what we do goes in circles. We have clocks and we say they go clockwise, but we have the concept what anti clockwise is. That is when the clock does not go in the direction it is suppose to be going. But we even see that the planet is going around (and around imply a circle) its own axis. What if we are getting to a polar flip and the earth stop and start going in the other direction? Not only our planet is going around its own axis, it is also in ecliptical way going around the sun and the sun in some circular way around in the milky way…and so it carries on.
But what is troubling me now is that in Afrikaans, if your reasoning are not getting you anywhere or to any conclusion, they will say you are like a “fitter” going around your own axis – so it is linked that there is no evolution if you are only going around in a circle all the time.
I just hope this is not applicable to the Universe – as it seems everything is going around something. Even if it is in an eclipse, it is still some form of circular movement.
I am wondering if we are really in an evolving Universe, or are we in a dying one? There are signs of new stars being born, but ours, our Sun, is dying – once a star is born, it starts the cycle to end up burnt out. Where is the evolution if all is caught in this cycle? And what else is a cycle than movement in a circular way? If we take on small scale and look at ourselves, what has humanity evolutionised into? Are we out of that cycle of beginning and end?
I don’t know, it is all just making me depressed and making the small thing about interpretation look ridiculously to keep ourselves busy with. And what does fate matter if we look at the microcosmos? AND this is if we can trust what the scientists are telling us that they pick up signals that new stars are born and that our sun will eventually burn out and that we are moving ecliptic round the sun and the sun in an ecliptic way in the milky way. Maybe that is why I saw that paper drifting off in space that once meant life. And I know that rebbe Nachman shows that God is seen as in a circle and making space for us, for creation, within God Self, within the circle. But I do not know how true this “conceptualisation” of God can be, as a circle seems limiting to me – and if I view eternity, there is a clash. An eternity within the boundaries of a circle? But the only thing at the moment that makes sense (even with the interpretation sillyness we are dealing with on the planet) is all is making no sense. I guess if we have sense we have to have something that makes no sense – just in this instance everything is linked to no sense and that the only thing that makes sense is nothing. And I remember a phrase about the Underlying Force of the universe that was said is the only one not to get caught up in the illusion. (That was still when I was looking up about the parrot and it is mentioned in a previous letter) And I was wondering what this illusion was all about. And my question is now, does an illusion make sense? We are in the no sense part, but nothing makes sense, or, the Underlying Force of the Universe do not get caught up in the illusion, or makes sense of everything that is not making sense to me at all. And that place I told you about in one of my previous letters, where I was in a place where “I” did not even exist, it was peaceful and there were nothing and there were not these endless questions about these clashing things, these things that made no sense. There, there were no bother with sense anymore.
There is no sense in this reality that make sense – and what do one do when you make something?
LOVE
Renee
16/01/2006 11:20 or 02:20
17/01/2006 09:34 and 3 times 4 equal 12, but today – not taking the year in account – is 17(0)1. The 1 and 7 combination both ways.
Dear Lore
I just thought to share this before I mail this letter to you. As I was writing the letter just before this one, yesterday, my father arrived home for no reason at all and he was irritating me because I was concentrating on something it seemed. Then he even went as far as to whistle and talk to the dogs that even irritated me more. And to put the cherry on the cake, he then tries to phone my mother, but for some or other reason he accidentally phones me…
But something that my father was here while I was writing that letter yesterday, has got something to do with it – because normally if something irritates me tremendously, it seems it needs my attention as that situation is trying to say something.
And I had these dreams again last night, or rather this morning as it was before I woke up. There was a blue lizard and some crocodiles coming to me at some stage in my dream. And then I walked beneath a tree – actually two trees eventually – and each time the tree consisted of spiders. And I read up in the “Animal Speak” book I have about these animals and it seems they all have something to do with the feminine energies and creativity. But I guess the true meaning will come in later if it is necessary at all to understand it better than just what I now mentioned.
Anyway, I was actually writing this letter primarily to tell you about the incident with my father yesterday – and Lore, there is a lot going on in this house at this time. A lot that I do not know what to make of…
LOVE
Renee
17/01/2006 09:44 and this complete the 1 and 7 combination, both ways, with the connection to the 44 as well in this end. And by now you know what the 1 and 7 and 44 is connected to…the Hebrew name of God meaning “I will be revealed at ever greater levels”.
Ns. You will see at the beginning of this letter it says this is Lor75 and Lor76. If you add 75 + 76 = 151 and this seems to be important the 1 and 5 combination as to the dream I had on the 15th that is shared with you in this Lor75+76. That must be a very important dream as never before did I my head want me to do this – add two Lore’s like this one was done. That was the dream about the man with the magician hat and that shot me in my right neck./throat, the one I saw through two windows – and although there were windows, there were nothing between those windows. Also is this “ns” not written with any number time frame – like my letters usually do. So this makes this letter also unusual. Why? I do not know the answer to that – though I would like to…
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